attention deficit delirium
ACHTUNG! ATTENTION! AHEAD IS: a river running turbulent against the rocks of your mind a thousand tributaries flowing whole ecosystems in kind in case of rain there may be flooding and water levels will rise in case of drought there will be blockage and waters' course may prise AHEAD IS: a runaway train on a neverending track there is no crossing you cannot pass a stop every hundred yards blowing by your window in a vibrant blur shapeless it runs on time but is always late there's a better stop to miss down the line it burns hot coal to indigo but billows cool steam unceasing all the time AHEAD IS: a computer with a hundred tabs bogged down and no task manager a click click click click click click click to and fro through nothingness meagre all its parts clogged with dust, outdated, and beyond overheated all its capacity far too overdrawn still pushing along with no grievances ACHTUNG!! ATTENTION!! AHEAD IS: a thought blocking your way that won't budge and no toll is quite enough a weighty ruminate wound tight and heavy with ne'er an albatross to trust ne'er doth the breeze blow its cold cloud of shadow on by you ne'er doth the sun beam dispel its dark fog and shine the day anew AHEAD IS: a dear interest, passing fancy, or another little daydream a whole 'nother life composed in a second again flashing while what is yet still in front of you ticks away ticks away ticks while sucking time and life and love until all meaning begins to slip AHEAD IS: a burning bush beside a flaming car crash beside a decrepit road beside everyone speeding on by an impotent person with some important place to go some imported where to be some impo'ent thing to do don't you see what they said in school was an example get in line zip your mouth follow the leader what they said in school was something something bullshit bullshit i never listened ACHTUNG!!! ATTENTION!!! AHEAD IS: a man working for "the man" working for the woman that is a shell of a man and they hate you a pair of dead eyes giving their full attention to exercising their much deserved authority against you someone that knows the rules and knows what's what someone that your taxes were just increased to fund AHEAD IS: a little candy that comes by the few dozen in a nice orange bottle stickered with your name on it a little boost a little perk a little help to get some things done as you slog through the bullshit you knew a kid they gave it to in first grade it brought his Fs to Ds and Cs he was a dropout you knew a kid that took it in grad school got double extra test time he plays lots of golf now AHEAD IS: more to your life than the noise of the world incessant all around you more to your soul than the unchecked box, half read book, and unbegun dream too no coming dread controls you no looming task owns you to run is to walk is to step one foot in front of the other no coming day is too far away and the past is right behind you both are living for today with God as your comfort and comforter ACHTUNG!!!! ATTENTION!!!! AHEAD IS: but another day behind another thing to do another forgotten date another click away another piece of mind another missed visit another compulsive distraction another dull pang of constant pain another bad night's sleep another flicker of being free another stop another go another copy and paste another unoriginal dream another unrealized potential another another another of more of the same ATTENTION if you let it be AHEAD IS: two roads that look like a thousand but are actually only one the path forward is the path your next step takes well traveled less traveled no matter your course has long since already begun a beautiful picture of incomprehensible mystery God as the author and artist you the ink and paint scattered thoughts can be made beautiful through Him righteous dreams made real through Him each moment more clear through Him all our praise and ATTENTION ought flow to Him AHEAD IS: tomorrow taking care of itself so let it today and God's creation so live it right now is here right here with you attention is not mere focus attention is what you do as all the vapour of your life swirls to dissipate around you reach out your hand bare your guarded heart wipe the mud from your eyes take up your cross and live to die for Christ first and in doing so those around you your attention, please. ahead is eternity. don't forget today.